It is back. It caught up with me suddenly. I don’t know what happened. I am awake most of the night. Even when I am really tired – long day in Lab or good workout in gym. Still, I just cannot sleep more than 4 hours.

I always had problems with my sleep. I hate it. I am an absolute light sleeper.
I see friends sleeping for 12+ hours. Spending days, noon, eves and nights – snoring and slumbering in bed. I have never been able to enjoy this.

I try to exert my brain. I try to think about all nonsense topics, past /future, think about work. Nothing helps!! ‘Insomniac’ status message ended up in all friends convincing me that I am falling in love or I need to see a psychiatrist. Whatever.

I would not have been complaining, if this happened when I have lots of activities on schedule. Say, summer time – friends n cards all night long or movies or night outs or at the worst -studies. But staying awake in bed without any reason, thinking about when I will be unaware about things around me - sucks!!

So at 3 am, I have nothing to do but just sprawl in my comforter. Tried movies. But then I am really tired of watching it alone and without talking. Music is invigorating. So are the books. I can’t talk on phone for this long. I just want to be able to sleep on my traditional time 11 to 7. I want a nice sound sleep.

Sleeplessness is the synonym for Emptiness n loneliness n annoyance. I need help!!

Whats Wrong???

• Slap on the face
  Bangladesh??
• Bob Woolmer
  I read it in the morning. I could not believe it. Tragic death. Utter shock. I felt terrible……
  Is the game worth this? Pressure which can cost someone his life?
  Rest in peace, Bob.
• Inzy 's retirement-
  Well, not a surprise after Pak’s disastrous performance. One of the senior most and experienced players. He is what Dravid is for the Indian team – Solid, Dependable and Experienced. Inshallah, I have always liked him. It was sad to see those press conference photos. You could see the pain in his eyes. Read comments on Bob’s death – people criticizing Inzamam. Absolutely tragic end of his career.
• Flintoff fined.
  Irresponsible behavior. Senior player boozing after losing an important game. How stupid that can be?
  
  All these news brought enough gloominess I needed to spoil my WC mood. Atypical bizarre and sensational start of tournament. May be nothing is wrong. But its just too much for me to digest.

My Wrong decisions in 2007

Its just 3rd month of the year and I have already realized the major mistakes I made.

1. Did not buy the ticket for Caribbean.
2. Did not buy the ticket for Caribbean.
3. Did not buy the ticket for Caribbean.

I would be regretting this decision till the next World Cup. Thanks to all my unenthusiastic and unsupportive friends.

I think this was my golden chance to watch WC. And I was desperate to be on the islands to witness the supreme event of cricket.

1. This was my last chance to see my heroes playing in WC. Dravid, Sachin, Ponting, Gilchrist, Fleming, Lara, Inzy – everyone playing their last WC (I assume). These are the players I followed since I was young. They are the reason behind me loving all cricket action. I would have loved to watch them ….under the the sun……by the beach…. on the ground…. performing to rule the world and create the history. It would have been like a dream come true!!

2. I would be really ‘old’ at the time of next world cup. I don’t see myself being a cricket enthusiast for next 4 years.

3. Flying to Caribbean –tickets, visa, money, office vacations etc. was manageable. It needed a lot of planning – where I failed. Hence now self reproaching.



Cricket Rules!! And I hate the fact that I am missing all that spirit n energy!!

!! HOLI !!

There wasn’t a single year without Holi colors in Pune. Never cared for exams, study, health, 10th or 12 th.I never missed getting soaked in colors and then maundering whole city pulling friends out from their house.
I was very homesick in 2005 Holi, never realized when it came n gone in 2006. After a looong 2 years gap…..I got to enjoy the colors again. Wasn’t the same but was fun for sure. Just made me realize …..How much I miss those days!!
This year, was a descent try to enjoy. Gulal induced fights n ‘drenching’ reprisal plans were pleasure indeed!! Bonfire n dancing would have been

adjuvant hoopla! Next year for sure!!

With new, older n oldest friends together, Uni color n chilly

Holi night was memorable!!