Weekend Feelings

Humdrum:
India trip. Call parents. Make pick up arrangements. Call friends. Make weekend plans. Pay your bills, leave check for rent of next month, discontinue phone service, go to Wal-Mart. Buy chocolates. Same every time-Hershey’s assorted. Go to mall. Buy gifts. Try to find Indian currency. Pack bags. Weigh bags. Unpack n repack. At least 3 times. Drink as much coffee since its last few days here. Go to food joints you love to eat at.
Hmm…..it’s just my 2nd trip but I find monotony in this.

Guilt:
And why am I not feeling guilty but just some sense of achievement? And why I am feeling bad because person in front of me is feeling guilt?. Wish I could comfort someone. I cannot see my friend suffering …..
Its strange. One incident ….leaves me feeling contented and leaves my friend remorse. Hence I am unable to enjoy my attainment. Its complicated.
Aug 11 was good. Except the fact that I slept entire day in my room…..around 14 hours!

Envy
I was talking to teenager kids and could not stop wondering how smart they are. No doubt the next generation is way ahead of mine……wish I was that smart when I was 13-14!!!

Blues
Enjoyed nice Girls evening out with my dear roommates. Made me feel how much I will miss them….I will be all alone there!