From the Airport

I hate waiting. Especially at airports. I hate whenever I get too much of free time to think about nonsense things.
I want to try going really late for my boarding once. The way they show it in movies…..at last minute when they are closing the gates….Its better than the time I spent waiting before they start calling seating. Also, I wish I had some companion in long flights. Sitting without talking and wondering about the person sitting next to you is not my cup of coffee.
As I leave for my second trip to India,.many thoughts are rushing in my mind. Last time when I went after 16 months…..I had a huge cultural shock. I am pretty sure many things must have changed by now….And I am really not ready for those changes. I always wanted my city to be like the one I grew up in. Its not like that nemore…..
4 long hours. Already had coffee 4 times. I don’t believe I cannot stay off the internet for less than 4 hours.
Thousands of people around. Everyone is similar situation one way or other. Its just being alone in crowd. Just waiting to be settled in my seat and start long boring flight.

Weekend Feelings

Humdrum:
India trip. Call parents. Make pick up arrangements. Call friends. Make weekend plans. Pay your bills, leave check for rent of next month, discontinue phone service, go to Wal-Mart. Buy chocolates. Same every time-Hershey’s assorted. Go to mall. Buy gifts. Try to find Indian currency. Pack bags. Weigh bags. Unpack n repack. At least 3 times. Drink as much coffee since its last few days here. Go to food joints you love to eat at.
Hmm…..it’s just my 2nd trip but I find monotony in this.

Guilt:
And why am I not feeling guilty but just some sense of achievement? And why I am feeling bad because person in front of me is feeling guilt?. Wish I could comfort someone. I cannot see my friend suffering …..
Its strange. One incident ….leaves me feeling contented and leaves my friend remorse. Hence I am unable to enjoy my attainment. Its complicated.
Aug 11 was good. Except the fact that I slept entire day in my room…..around 14 hours!

Envy
I was talking to teenager kids and could not stop wondering how smart they are. No doubt the next generation is way ahead of mine……wish I was that smart when I was 13-14!!!

Blues
Enjoyed nice Girls evening out with my dear roommates. Made me feel how much I will miss them….I will be all alone there!

~ 3 YEARS ~

It doesn’t really seem to be 3 years. I can probably remember 90% of total days clearly. But surely have been a terrific experience in US of A.

My happiest moment was…
When I bought my Car.

My worst moment was ….
When I talked to my mom for the first time after my accident.

My most “relieved” feeling moment was….
When I got Sherwin Williams internship.

My most “tensed” feeling moment was….
When all H1 drama happened

My saddest moment was….
When I saw Sagar walking for the first time after accident.

My most enjoyable day was….
Day at Put In Bay.

My most enjoyable trip
When we went to NYC in 2005

My Craziest Moment
First time first drop on Millennium ride.

My Most angry moment
When my CPT was rejected.

My most proud moment
When I realized my parents were satisfied with their trip.

Best person I have met in last 3 years
Sagar G

Funniest friend I have got in last 3 years
Bedya

Worst people I met
My first Cleveland roommates

Best American friend I got
Mo

Best place I have been to
Cedar point

The longest drive I had
Cleveland to Clemson

My Coldest Day
13 feb 2007. Worst snow I have experienced.

My Hottest Day
Grand Canyon trip – day time.

The Best house I stayed in
424 Sumner

The city I really liked
St. Louis

The downtown I really liked
Manhattan

The best workplace
IS&T in Cleveland State Uni

Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is worst kind of suffering.

I have forgotten what I am waiting for.
I am not even sure whether I am really waiting for something.
Does this mean I have escaped from the suffering??